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Outsider

By Danny Perkins

Artist Note: Because of my struggles dating as a queer and trans person, and lack of relationships due to my difficulty navigating the queer dating scene as someone without a lot of experience,​ I’ve mostly kept to myself in these past years. I’m a part of the vibrant LGBTQ+ community on campus, and while I’m certainly not alone in terms of loving friendships, romance has escaped me. This piece of work is the manifestation of a very specific kind loneliness that I find hard to describe, and something I think I’ll still be wrestling with in the foreseeable future. Fingers crossed it changes someday.

i’m starving

my fingers grow thin

stomach caved in

eyes growing dull

i haven’t been held in months

a kiss feels an eternity away

my skin is electric

a wire pulled taut

i feel myself turning to dust

crumbing at the slightest touch

undisturbed for so many years

the slightest breath is overwhelming

seeing others in love makes my bones ache

i avert my eyes as if i’m staring into the sun

is this body capable of being adored?

headlines say no

papers mock

whispers behind backs

the in-between child

not of this earth

my friends answer yes

my mind knows otherwise

a blessing and a curse intertwined

settling into my skin

painting me an outsider

By Wetlands Magazine

Wetlands Magazine is the University of Puget Sound campus publication dedicated to the critical interrogation of gender, sexuality, ability, age, class, race, embodiment, intersectional identities and social justice as well as the celebration of related art, poetry, literature and performance.

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